Showing posts with label lymphadenopathy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label lymphadenopathy. Show all posts

A little too slow, a little too fast

It's Saturday and the only blank day on the calendar this week. Aaron and Katy traipsed off to the creek for trout fishing in the 90 degree heat, and the other kids are out in the cut hayfield tossing the ball around. I take my first deep breath of the morning and begin to process all we learned at Mayo Clinic yesterday, the good news and the bad, and begin to Google and research the news about Amy's immune system and what it will mean for her future. I trust you want to know, too - a passel of dear readers who've followed every step of her journey from health to encephalitis to seizures and now her latest cancer scare.


Yesterday we traveled back down to Mayo to get the results of her immune system testing from a venerated doctor who is compassionate and personable. This doctor is a little older than myself, and is also just growing her hair back from her own cancer treatment. We laugh together about spiky bedhead and trade secrets about hair products for short, unruly course post-cancer treatment hair before getting into the details about Amy's testing.

She starts with the "good" news, as doctors always do. She has decided that she won't recommend Amy for a bone marrow transplant "at this time" - I breathe a slightly shocked and horrified sigh of relief to this answer to prayer, as I didn't know she would even consider such a thing once cancer was off the table! Apparently she has discovered something about Amy's immune system that would indicate a transplant might be necessary??


She holds out a sheaf of lab results and uses her pen as a pointer, guiding me through the results. Amy's bone marrow, she explains, is not functioning normally. It is not active enough. She thinks this is partly because it has become suppressed by an autoimmune response, which is evidenced by Amy's severe asthma in infancy and toddlerhood, and the autoimmune brain abnormalities (ADEM) she suffered post-brain infection in 2009 and 2010 (click here to read more about that history).

While Amy's bone marrow, one half of her immune system, is not functioning as well as it should, the other half of her immune system is in overdrive! Her lymph nodes and thymus gland are over-reacting to infections and invaders, and actually could be what is suppressing her bone marrow. That is why the doctor doesn't think a bone marrow transplant would work, because Amy's body would just suppress new bone marrow anyway. (Aaron and I wouldn't choose a transplant regardless, so we are thankful we don't have to argue this choice with the doctor!)

In non-medical terms, one half of Amy's immune system isn't working well, but the other half of her immune system is compensating for it by over-reacting. The early, non-specific reaction to infection is not functioning very well, so initially, Amy gets too sick, too quick from routine viruses and bacterial invaders. On the other hand, the specific, highly-tailored response of her body to specific infections that her body has identified is working very well, so she is able to fight off infections in the later stages very well. This is probably why her lymph glands are so swollen right now, after the infection is gone, because her system went into hyper-drive during and after the infection to make sure she fought it off completely. Her overreaction after the initial underreaction may be God's provision to keep her safe from the infections that seem to plague her little body.

The lump on the right side of Amy's neck is visible in this photo.
In the past week, she's developed visible lumps on the left side as well.
While it's never fun to get bad news of any kind, I feel peaceful about the "watch and wait" plan laid out by the immunologist. In general, I am feeling cautious about pursuing treatment for Amy. She seems to be regaining energy and happiness every day, and it seems foolish to me to disturb a little girl when she is visibly healing. I am very pleased that the doctors all seem to be reaching the same conclusion even though they have uncovered some new medical problems along the way.


Oh - one other tidbit from yesterday's appointment: the immunologist confirmed, conclusively and for the second time, that Amelia did, indeed, have diptheria toxoid encephalitis that was vaccine related in October, 2009. 


If you would like to read more about Amy's new diagnoses, click the links below to read some general information about the conditions the doctor found:

  • Secondary moderate immunodeficiency
  • Bone marrow transplant for secondary immunodeficiency (notice there were 148 patients but only 14 were included in the study: what happened to the other 134? Of the 14 included, 2 died and the condition of 2 more are unreported. Is BMT really that successful for t-cell immunodeficiency? Aaron and I are skeptical.)
  • A basic overview and diagram of the immune system, including the relationship of the lymphatic system and bone marrow. The green areas of the diagram are the parts of Amy's body that are functioning on "high", and the bone marrow is what is not functioning well.
  • Understanding where the cells of the immune system come from and how they differentiate to become either lymphatic or blood cells. If you are interested in stem cell research, this is a good introduction!
Amelia's frame was not hidden from you when she was made in the secret place: Your eyes saw her unformed body; all the days ordained for her were written in your book before one of them came to be. (from Psalm 139)

Update on Amelia


Amy went back to Mayo yesterday to see the oncologist (cancer doctor). The news was not good. I think I am in denial, or my heart is too heavy to process the emotions I'm having. Amelia's lump is harder, with more defined borders. Last week it was described as rubbery, more consistent with a "regular" swollen lymph node. This week it feels like a cancerous lymph node. The doctor said she thinks there is now about a 50% chance Amy has lymphoma. She wants Amy to finish out her course of antibiotics just in case it makes a difference. She also said there is still a small chance it is a viral infection, and is hoping the immune doctor we see on Friday will give us some other explanation. Amy is scheduled for surgery to remove several lymph nodes on the right side of her neck on June 29th. On June 28th, she will meet again with the oncology doctor, this time a team of doctors who will outline a possible course of treatment, and she will also meet with a surgical team who will come up with the best plan for her surgery, since she has had a notoriously difficult time with anesthesia in the past because of her brain abnormalities after her brain infection and brain damage in 2009.

The doctors expect to be able to perform the surgery using a drug that Amy has done well with in the past, Propofol. They are hoping to use a small incision about a 1/4 inch long, and use a vacuum tool to extract the numerous lymph nodes through the small incision. Then the lymph nodes will be frozen and examined by an oncology pathologist who will give us a definite diagnosis about lymphoma. Meanwhile, Amy's recovery should be fairly easy. The only complications they foresee is her response to the anesthetic. It will take up to a week to get the results back about whether or not it is cancer.

Meanwhile, Amy seems to be getting worse with each passing day. On Sunday, she attended church in her winter hat, an owl hat we bought her for Christmas, that garnered a lot of compliments and some funny looks. She is dressing in winter clothes because she is so cold, despite temperatures in the 80s. A woman at church knit her a prayer shawl, which she wears around the house and has been very thankful for because of the added warmth. She has four blankets on her bed at night and wears fleece footy pajamas and a winter hat, but still comes to our bed shivering with cold and begs for our down comforter. During the day, she takes multiple breaks for naps in my bed and sits on the porch on the swing while the other kids play. All of this is very uncharacteristic for the most active of our four children. She is obviously sick with something. We just don't know what yet. Trying not to borrow worry from tomorrow per the verse sufficient unto each day are the trials thereof (Matthew 6:34), we accept her latest quirks as added cuteness from an already quirky and enigmatic little girl who regularly charms us with her antics.

A quick look into lymphoma gives me a little more hope. It is likely that, if this is what Amy has, it is non-Hodgkin's lymphoma, because of her age. It also probably the aggressive form, because so far it looks like her bone marrow, liver and spleen are not involved even though she already has symptoms of lymph node enlargement (yeah!). The 5 year survival rate for this type of lymphoma is 63% and the 10 year survival rate is 51%. That is very similar to odds I was given for my cancer and it looks like I will be beating the 5 year odds.

We need your prayers, oh, we need your prayers. This is so overwhelming for Aaron and I. We both have had days of deep depression, so deep we are weeping for help from the Lord. As former pediatric bone marrow transplant nurses, we can list off dozens of favorite lymphoma patients, most of whom are dead, and this adds to the weight of our current situation. Even the doctors acknowledge this when I tell them about our background. They know that this adds to our anxiety - and at the same time makes us more knowledgeable. Please continue to lift up Amy's health - but also our whole family and the emotional ups and downs of this new journey we are on together as a family as we wait for surgery and diagnosis.


Please post this blog button all over the internet and rally prayer for my daughter as we face the uncertainty, grief and fear of the coming weeks.


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Baffled and blessed

So far, we don't have any definitive answers about Amy. We did go to Mayo yesterday, and it had to be the shortest trip we've ever had! Every one of Amy's tests was scheduled one after the other, with no long waiting periods in between, and they were all on the same floor! The staff was all the great pediatric staff, and she did really well, even with her blood draws. She informed me she was going to be brave and she was!


The cancer doctor who saw Amy thinks her history is intriguing and thinks it is "likely" that the cause of the current problem is an infection or a problem with her immune system. She referred Amy to an immunologist, a doctor who can better diagnose under- or over-function of the immune system. Amy will see him next Friday down at Mayo again. She also said leukemia is absolutely not on the table. Praise the Lord! Unfortunately, lymphoma is. She thought it "unlikely" that it was lymphoma - and told me that, with what she knew yesterday, there was about a 15% chance that it would turn out to be lymphoma. I didn't like that number very much, I'll admit! But I've gotten over it and decided to dwell on the "unlikely" instead of the statistic for now. She sent Amy immediately for blood work for several of the most likely infectious causes, especially cat scratch disease since we have two kittens, as well as a chest x-ray to rule out pneumonia or a raging case of lymphoma.

This morning, she called me to let me know the chest x-ray was normal: as in, no pneumonia, and no raging case of lymphoma - which unfortunately doesn't rule out early lymphoma. The blood work was also all negative - it still doesn't look suspicious for an infection. The doctor commented that with each other cause ruled out, lymphoma does seem more likely. But for now she is going to start Amy on a 10 day course of antibiotics to see if the lymph nodes get smaller, and if they do, we will know it was infectious, although we will probably never know the cause. If they stay the same or get bigger, she will need surgical removal of the largest lump for further diagnosis and treatment. Hopefully immunology will have some insight as well next week.

Thanks for all your prayers! We will keep you updated as things progress!

Perfect timing


I watched you, long and lean, waiting for the waves. You've been my little water baby since your first trip to South Carolina when you were five months old and I took you to the beach in the hot July sunset and you stripped off your diaper and went in head first.

You've got the timing down now, and you're a pro at body surfing. So much so your father and I hold our breath every time you catch one, waiting for you to swirl up from the surf and breath air again. It's hard to let go of your long little fingers since you're only 5 years old. Your swim teacher says you're the best swimmer she's ever taught, but the ocean is a fierce competitor.


It was on one of those sun-drenched ocean days that I noticed the lump on your neck was so much bigger. Your papa took your tiny neck in his big brown hands and squeezed it, too, and our eyes met over your tawny lioness head and we shared a drink of fear together. But we were far from home, and we had to wait some more. You are a fierce little girl, stronger than most we know, tenacious and lion-hearted and brave, but cancer is a fierce competitor.

Even once the doctors felt your neck, the waiting continues. We won't know until sometime next week if we're looking at cancer or infection. We won't know if you need surgery, or chemo, or nothing. We pray over you at night, cuddling you between us like we did when you were a baby, the hours too precious to send you off to your own bed. Our eyes meet again over your little lioness head while you sleep, and it is a drink of peace and fear all mixed together like a dry wine, bitter and savory all at once. For we are savoring these moments. You learn that, when cancer has come to call in your life before. Waiting is not so bad. There is hope while you wait. Once the waiting is over, and the answer is given, it is like the bang of the judge's gavel and reality descends, hope dissipates, and you are adrift on an ocean with few choices and a whirlwind of activity pummeling just like the endless waves.

Linked with Lisa-Jo for the prompt "Expectation"

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From this one place

Wednesday there was only one square normal hour of the day. The day started and ended with doctor's appointments, and we learned that Amelia has over 50 enlarged lymph nodes all over her body, wherever lymph nodes are. The largest one received an ultrasound thanks to a kind coworker of Aaron's who fit Amy in between patients late in the day. The lymph node is larger than they thought - 2.56 by 2.87 centimeters, which is a little larger than a U.S. quarter. A call from her doctor today was reassuring: although they can't rule out lymphoma or leukemia, it isn't a solid tumor like a thyroid tumor or many other types of cancer that spread through the lymph nodes, and her thyroid looks just fine. Since I had thyroid cancer, that was something they wanted to double check. Her blood work looked about the same. He did confirm that she has the same kidney syndrome that I have, and suggested that we get a lab test at Mayo to double check that diagnosis. I've suspected she had it ever since she was a baby, and just include her in my potassium-rich diet and give her electrolytes every day when I drink them, so knowing this for sure won't have any implications for our lifestyle.


Today was a doctor free day. Whenever fear comes knocking, my reaction is to find ways to savor every minute with my family. I bought a $1 bottle of "real man" (a.k.a. Barbasol) shaving cream for Caleb, and Amy wanted in on the action of "shaving". They used some cake decorating tools and had a blast and both emerged from the bath smelling like little old men.


We put some ribbons in Amy's hair because her hair was so beautiful and curly after her bath. I've been finding that - and yes, I know we don't know yet and I shouldn't even be thinking about it!! - I am just soaking up Amy's hair because it has always been one of my favorite things about her. If she loses it, that will be very hard for me as a mom. So I've been paying more attention to it, doing it every day, and stroking it more than usual when we cuddle. She loves the extra head rubs!


The lab techs sent her home with a bunch of supplies to play doctor (or "doctah" as she says it), so she got busy drawing blood on her siblings when she got home. Here she is "pagin' the doctah for owdows" (orders). She has learned WAY too much in the hospital the last week! She probably knows more medical lingo than most adult patients, between her frequent doctor visits and two nurses for parents.



Another joy we've been reveling in - two beautiful little kittens who are about 5 weeks old now. They are just learning to drink cream from a dish and we had a lot of giggles watching them this morning. They would bob their heads in the dish and then pop them back out because they got a nose full of cream! The skinnier of the two, Seashell (the black and tan one), learned quicker than her sister, Pearl. Caleb scares us a bit because he is such a rough and tumble boy, but he likes to lay on the floor by the kittens and watch them for hours. It's very sweet and at least I don't have to worry that he's going to crush them!


This weekend will be too busy to think much about anything related to Amy's health. I am doing something I only do for someone I really, really love - doing photography for a wedding of a dear friend. I'm actually more excited than usual about it because I'm using my brother's extremely cool antique medium format camera (a Yashika) as well as an old "toy" camera, a Baby Brownie, along with 35 mm film and digital. It will be fun to be shooting in all those formats and I'm sure we'll get some really interested photos because of it. Aaron is my second shooter, and working together with him will be fun. The heat index is supposed to be over 100 degrees and I'm in a black dress, though - whew!

Tuesday we bring Amy to Mayo Clinic in Rochester to a hematology/oncology specialist. There we will finally get some real answers about what is going on with her. Yesterday, we started her on an organic elderberry supplement that is supposed to boost immunity. We also prayed over her, laying on hands and annointing with oil - something I've only ever done when I was diagnosed with cancer myself. We also sent out prayer requests to multiple churches. We may just be hopeful, but both Aaron and I felt like the largest lump on Amy's neck MAY be just a titch smaller and less hard this evening than it has been? If it does start to get smaller, that would indicate that it was some type of infection rather than cancer, which would be a huge answer to our prayers.

Please keep praying for miraculous healing of this little girl!
Is any sick among you? let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord: And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him. (James 5:14-15)
I was about to give up and that's no lie
cardinal landed outside my window
threw his head back and sang a song
so beautiful it made me cry

took me back to a childhood tree
full of birds and dreams

from this one place I can't see very far
in this one moment I'm square in the dark
these are the things I will trust in my heart
you can see something else
something else

I don't know what's making me so afraid
tiny cloud over my head
heavy and grey with a hint of dread
I don't like to feel this way

take me back to a window seat
with clouds beneath my feet

from this one place I can't see very far
in this one moment I'm square in the dark
these are the things I will trust in my heart
you can see something else
something else
~from this one place, sara groves~



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