A morning greeting from a lonely Mama's boy.
Even through my swollen lids he looked wonderful. I don't know how I will bear this...
Apparently I still have enough tears to cry.
Does one always wear flannel to radiology in Wisconsin? I missed the memo.
Ah, the notorious blue vinyl chairs, impervious to radiation and chemo. I remember these so well. And I've never sat in them before.
Bones spinning. Almost time.
Lead glows in fluorescent light.
One little word says so much: carcinoma.
Two categories that won't define me ever again. I've stepped out of these bounds forever.
Electric blue for danger. Down the hatch...
7 comments:
My prayers are with you and I love your blog. I am here with you in a similar scary place for a young mama --or anyone. Electric blue is for danger--but it is also the color of oceans in Hawaii and other magnificent things to show our children.
Thank you for sharing your blog.--Kristen
Thank you for taking us with you on this. I love you, friend.
Thanks for sharing your day with us. I loved the other comment about blue being the color of the ocean and the sky. Beautiful pieces of God's wonderful creation that you will be here to enjoy for a long time to come. I am here for anything you need.
Gen, All of my thoughts & prayers are with you!
(Mom of 3 Boys in TX)
Powerful pictures!
You know you've got my prayers. Thank you for sharing with us so I know exactly what prayers are needed. Rest, relax, think of the 4 precious reasons you are putting yourself through this.
Hugs to you,
Janyne
i am sitting here not knowing quite what to say. thank you for sharing this with us. the picture of the stark black and white sign... and your statement, "two words that will never define me," took my breath away. I wish you did not have to go through this! I come here to try and leave words of encouragement, yet, every time, I am the one who leaves feeling blessed. In the midst of such vulnerability, when your body is at its physical weakest, you show such inner strength -- and beauty. Your children have an amazing mama. I don't have any idea what this must be like for you, but I am thinking of you often, and Am praying that this bitter, cold November will pass quickly for you, and you will be enjoying the renewal and warmth of Spring soon.
Much love,
Nora
Hi Gen. This is Jessica, Aaliyah's mama. As i sit and read your blog I cant help but feel a deep sadness for you and your family. The pictures are a stark reminder that tradgedy can strike close to home. I also cant help but wonder what i would do in your place. I believe in God, and try to live rightously, but i do slip. As i read your blog, i critisize myself. How can a mother of four with such an unsure future hold so strongly to her religion, and yet I slip up so much. I feel like I could learn alot from you. I dont know you too well, but I still look up to you. From your heart problems in the past, to your current nightmare of health, you still manage a smile for your children. you still manage to leave a note of encouragement for your friends and family, and to express your religion strongly and share it with others. I see that there is nothing in this world that can take away my GOD, NOTHING, not cancer, or sadness, or the unknown future. Because God is there not because these things happen, but in spite of these things. I have just always thought that as long as i Believe in Him, as long as i truely believe that he is my savor and he died for my sins, that Hes always there, even when im not living for Him. But now I stop and think, what something made me unsure of my future. Would I be able to smile at my children and KNOW that if I dont wake up in the morning I will be in a better place? In my heart I know i would feel uncertain. SO for your surness (thats not even a word) I admire you. You are always in our prayers. And in case you havent heard it enough, you are a beautiful person and a more than wonderful mother. God Bless you and your family. Love, Jess
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