It is dark and silent, this place I have descended to in the past weeks. Holy hushed, almost. Like church during a funeral. A cave for the soul to hide, perhaps? I pray hard, eyes squinted shut, that some spiritual growth is revealed under the raw places soon - some messenger that this is worth it all. One foot, then the other,
I say "yes" everyday by little increments: taking my pills, eating when I'm supposed to, getting up out of bed in the morning, going to work and delivering a lecture.
If only there were a way to say "no" to pain.
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Oh Bless you Genevieve. This is so tender, this piece from your gentle soul. May the light shine bright soon. Soon. Lord, soon. Praying for Light in the Darkness and comfort from The Comforter. Great to see you at Em's place. What an embracing and encouraging place.
praying that He help you with the "no" and floods you with comfort
oh that i could wrap you fully in a hushed embraced. a place for your soul to sit, quiet until the time comes to spring forth. you are not alone in this dark damp cave. feel that pressure at your side? that's me, darlin' sitting right beside you.
No, not alone. And I see you, through your words, fighting heroically. Pausing to pray over you now. May God surprise you with an unmistakable sense of his peace and presence.
I've have just been where you are and may I extend some hope? He is with you, He has not forgotten you, joy is just on the horizon. I've tasted it and its worth the wait, even the pain. Praying for you.
Hi,
Thank you for letting me peak into your quiet and hanging in there spot. I've been there. Hold on, friend. It gets better.
I'm popping over from the Imperfect Prose link up. Nice to meet you.
What are you lecturing on?
Jennifer Dougan
www.jenniferdougan.com
Everytime, you put one foot in front of the other and move forward, against all odds, you are saying, "YES!" Your painful journey may help the "next person" to go through, as you never know who is watching and following your journey. Lifting you in prayer. ~Cynthia
P.S. Found you on Faith Barista
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oh genevieve, you are brave and beautiful. keep putting those feet one in front of the other, and he will lead you...
So lovely. So glad I stumbled upon this. Ive been dreaming of caves to hide in all week, oddly.
You are beloved and His Beloved! Precious OAOD!
Oh Genevieve,
Praying that this holy hushed cave will be a place of mending in the deep places. You are so constant, so diligent in your every day doings, despite your pain. I am convinced that such is the case with the Holy Spirit, that it is a constant force, hidden in the folds of darkness, rendering life from brokenness.
I take comfort in the verse "whether you go to the right or the left, you will hear a whisper behind you, saying, "This is the way. Walk in it."
Oh, that Holy Spirit, hidden in the folds of darkness, the inner wellspring that washes comfort over the raw places - yes, rendering life from brokenness. Thank you for these words, Holly.
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