Jesus paid it all


Head knowledge is different than knowing something deep in your heart. The concept that echoes through every conversation I've had in the past few months is God's love. I believe that He died for me, which was an act of love. But I find the blackness of my own heart so hideous that it is hard to believe that He forgave that out of love. Perhaps this is why He seems so distant from me lately. How would you feel if you tried to give someone a gift and they rejected it, citing their unworthiness, then walking away from you? The ongoing acceptance of God's love in our broken lives is praise, worship, and thankfulness. That's what God wants me to be doing.

In the quagmire of guilt and shame, I am searching frantically for the rope to lift me out. I find it in Romans during devotions this morning, and exhale a long slow sigh I didn't know I was holding in.
For the Scripture says, "Everyone who believes in him will not be put to shame." 10:11
Bye, bye shame.
Hello, beloved Savior. 




Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
Give me your life
The lust and the lies
The past you're afraid I might see
You've been running away from me

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
And it binds you to me
It's a mystery

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
I'm the giver of life
I'll clothe you in white
My immaculate bride you will be
Oh come running home to me yeah now

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
and Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
and it binds you to me yeah now

Well you've been a mistress, my wife
Chasin' lovers it won't satisfy
Won't you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips
And you'll taste new life

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be (forever we'll be)
Our Love it unites us
And it binds you to me
It's a mystery
~ Beloved, Tenth Avenue North ~